I want to be one who follows through. But I’m not, usually.
I’m the kind of person who always has grand ideas that don’t come to fruition. Or worse, the beginning happens, but nothing else does.
Here are a few examples:
- I learned to knit awhile back, but have never learned how to do anything besides scarves. At this point, all I know how to do is cast on stitches and knit and purl (two kinds of stitches).
- I’ve tried to get in the habit of running multiple times, but always end up quitting because of the weather getting colder, not wanting to get up when it’s dark, or just plain being lazy/uncommitted.
- Attempted to learn multiple instruments, but have nothing to show for it because I didn’t want to work at it and ended up just stopping.
- We currently have lots of empty picture frames sitting in our house that have never been filled with wedding/other pictures.
- I am the world’s worst photo-documentarian, letter-writer, and present-sender. It just doesn’t happen until it’s incredibly too late… and then it’s too late.
- Being honest, I was a really lazy/bad student a lot of the time.
I know I’m not the only one who does things like this, but it doesn’t change the fact that I am aware of how weak, imperfect and lazy I can be. I don’t have solid answers to why I am this way, but I do know that this habit perpetuates itself. My non-committal, stubborn self tries to assert itself whenever possible, unless I try very hard to change.
That said, I don’t like being this way. And I want to be different. But it takes time, especially because there are long-ingrained habits that have to change, bit by bit. It’s pretty much impossible to make a 180-degree change overnight, but I am working to think differently and act different than I have in the past.
The current habit that I’m working to change, forever, is how I treat my body. I want to be at a healthy weight and have healthy eating habits. Here are ways that I’m working on it:
- Eating less than I used to. Not eating seconds almost always, unless it’s a special meal or I still feel pretty hungry.
- Not eating emotionally and keeping foods out of our house that will influence that- high sugar desserts, snack foods like crackers and chips, processed foods in general.
- Eating out less.
- Limiting myself on “treats” – coffee, sweets, etc., and not finding excuses to consume them.
These are ways to maintain a healthy weight – something that I haven’t experienced in a long time – but ultimately I have to lose weight to be healthier. I am currently doing a program called P90-X that consists of video workouts that you use in a rotation for 90 days (6 workouts a week) in order to achieve results. I am hoping to stick it out for as long as it takes to make it through 90 days of exercise. Even if it takes longer than the allotted time period, I am determined to finish, and then figure out how to incorporate regular exercise into my life.
I know that I can only really change and learn how to finish with God’s help, because that is what He does. It says in Phil 1:6 that “… he who began a good work in you will carry it on to completion until the day of Christ Jesus.” The meaning here is spiritual, but I believe that He can and will complete any good work in us that we give over to Him for His glory and ask Him to bless. Therefore I ask that you would join me in praying this for ourselves, that we would not live in condemnation of who we used to be or who we are, but realize that in Christ we are made new and are ever-changing into the image of Christ.
Is there anything I said that resonated with you? I would love to know so that I encourage you and pray for you. There’s much more that could be said on this topic, so please share if you like.